This morning when I awoke I Knew that this was the first Sunday of the month, for us LDS members that means that we fast for 2 meals, and start and end with a prayer of gratitude for what we are fast for or about! Today as I knelt to open my fast my body was heavy with and overwhelming sense of Motherhood stresses! Why does this happen when you are trying to feel the spirit and keep it with you on the Sabbath Day, I try every day but mostly on Sundays! I had the kids fighting this morning about who got to be on the laptop the longest or who ate what cereal first and used it all, or the fact that the skirt they picked out (not me) was too itchy and they didn't want to wear it, when it wasn't even my idea in the first place but I'm the one getting yelled at for it! Really!! Then you get to church with a smile on your face and thinking the whole time, if these people really knew that I just threatened my children with a huge time out and early bed time if they misbehaved in church they'd be appalled but I think we are fooling everyone with our (my) happy smiling face as we walk into sacrament!!! I can't tell you the flow of emotions that came pouring over me as I opened my fast today and just sat there for the longest time in silence, wondering how to fast for what I wanted so badly in my life at this time, Peace, calmness, happiness, endurance, calmness, to be more understanding as a mother and wife, calmness, the cloudiness to leave my head, the overwhelming feeling of defeat to disappear, calmness calmness calmness!!! As I asked for each of these I felt a rush of warmth come over me and the word calmness stayed with me, literally, I think I could have fallen asleep, I was so calm! Even though I could still hear the "murmuring" going on between "Lamen, Lemual " It didn't seem so big and defeating at that time, so it accrued to me that what I am going to have to do on a daily basis is go in my room, kneel on my knees and ask for that feeling of calmness to be with me, then sit there and just listen! It's the listening that makes all the difference in the world! It was amazing to me! I tell my kids everyday "your not listening to me" I think Heavenly Father is tapping at my soul and saying "Tifani, you are not listening to me" He's right! Turn off the T.V. and the music that is helping you clean the house to a steady beat and turn on a talk from a General authority or Sheri Dew or just inspirational music!!! or just sit in silence as you fold the clothes if the kids are asleep! Life is so fast paced and we need to have more "listening moments" Its amazing how I look at what I say to my kids and turn it around at myself, as if Heavenly Father were saying it to me!!!! Try it, sometimes it makes me laugh and other I cry and that feels good sometimes too!
Drama queen through and through! Loves anything to do with music, clothes, shopping, make up and her friends!! She is a good friend and loves to make people happy! She loves to babysit and is growing up to be quite the little lady!!
Cambry aka Toad
Cam is our little sporty girl!! She loves any sport and riding horses!! She is very tender hearted and always looking out for the underdog! Cam wants to be a vet when she grows up cause she love love loves animals. she loves to have a good time and her laugh is contagious. She is the life of the party!
Doyle aka Bubba D
Loves anything to do with his Dad. Wears an Orange CKC shirt everywhere, (not kidding either), has to wear his dad's shirt he is wearing that day ,for bed, Loves helping his dad with the dogs and teasing his sisters!! The most spoiled little boy out there and we wouldn't have it any other way!!!
Brynlee aka Bryn
Our newest addition to our family and the love of our lives. She couldn't wait to get here and at 7 weeks early she is the sweetest thing EVER!!!
Funny little Things
Kaely~ 3-10"Mom I know what I don't want to be when I grow up, an artist cause their not famous till their dead" Cam ~ 5-11(after watching Flicka 2) "Mom I feel like I just want to run through really green grass really fast on a horse" Cam ~ 5-11"Mom I don't feel sick I just feel like a have a storm inside" Doyle~5-13 "Mom I don't want my name to be (as he spells out) D-O-Y-L-E, I want it to be H-I-J-K-L, can it be that please!!!!" Doyle~5-13 "Mom Brynlee just got a bless you!" Cam 5-22 Doyle you never want to go to Judy, right mom, what is judy cam, it's like a jail for kids who are bad!" (Oh Juvy) Cam 5-24 "Mom, I want to live in Wyomy (Wyoming) why is that cam,cause they don't have cars, you get to ride around on horses all day" Doyle 5~25 (after watching an episode ofCharles in Charge and hearing the name Tifani) "Hey Mom, they said Tifani, that is your name. Your first name is Mom and your last name is Tifani" DOYLE 1-29-11~Cam says" Doyle dad is going to get the ball off the roof for us" Doyle so happy cause it's been up there for 2 month's says "did he just go in the bathroom" Cam says "yep" Doyle says with disappointment in his voice, is he going # 1 or 2
Blessings Will Come When We Make Our Home a Sanctuary
"Let us make our homes sanctuaries of righteousness, places of prayer, and abodes of love that we might merit the blessings that can come only from our Heavenly Father. We need His guidance in our daily lives."
“May we . . . demonstrate kindness and love within our own families. Our homes are to be more than sanctuaries; they should also be places where God’s Spirit can dwell, where the storm stops at the door, where love reigns and peace dwells.”
Thomas S. Monson,