Happy Birthday Brynlee boo!!!

Today was supposed to be a great day for you, but you are sick with your 8th ear infection and a chest cold that is kicking your trash!! As I lay here in bed typing this I hear you cough then cry out in pain and it breaks my heart!!! You sure are a fighter!! You've brought our home so much happiness and love!!! I love your cheesy smile and the sound of you gabbin away as you crawl around the house!!! I love you leelee !!

Reason #21

Because on a night like tonight, sinus infection, chest cold, depressed and exhausted you help the kids with their homework, and head back to work after making out with me for a minute :) As I stand in the kitchen wondering where in the world to start, with a whirlwind mess in my house you walk in with a vanilla diet pepsi and another makeout kiss for me!!! I love you, love!!! and I'm so glad you are mine!!!

Happy Birthday Gene Daddy Thang!!!!! I love you

A shout out to the worlds greatest Dad!!! I love everything about my dad, even when he is stubborn!! I am glad that my dad is my Dad, and that I have been blessed to be his favorite daughter!!! Dad tells ya like it is, no sugar coatin!! I love that he has the biggest hands but they give the most tender touch, and his "BIG" squeezes leave you feeling like the most loved and protected person in the world! With all the pain and suffering that I have gone through in my life, my dad has been there through most of it knowing that I need him more than anything, who did Brian call after my last back incident, my dad, he knew that I was going to be asking for him sooner or later!!! My dad hugged me when they informed me that I would be flown out to Phoenix to probably deliver my daughter 2 months early within a few days and came over to the couch and scooped me into his arms and just held on tight!!! I knew it would be okay, even though I had no idea really, and I was terrified! He would call me periodically throughout my stay over in Mesa the month Brynlee was in the NICU to see how I was doing, cause he understood, like no one else did, cause he had gone through the same thing 33 years prior with me when I was born, at 3 weeks early and weighed in at 3 LB 14OZ. He knew just the right questions to ask and just the right words to say!! I now that my Heavenly Father loves me to the moon and back, cause he gave me "My Dad"

Reason # 14

Because being in your arms is the most peaceful place for me to be!!! I feel so safe right up next to your chest, I love the sound of your heart beating!!! I love you more and more everyday!!!

Reason # 13

Because nine years ago today you gave me the cutest 6lb 12oz baby girl any mom could ask for! Cambry Christi Cluff

Reason # 11

Because even though the front door handle hasn't worked for 3 weeks now and EVERYDAY i kindly ;) remind you to fix it, and it's still not fixed, your kisses melt my heart still and make me feel all fuzzy inside still, after 13 years of marriage!

Reason # 10

You try so hard to shower me with hugs and kisses and muggings when I am in a bad mood, to make me smile and you usually end up winning, but some times I just smile so you'll leave me alone!!! ;) secrets out!!!

Reason # 9

Because on our wedding day, you whispered in my ear while we were having pictures taken "I get to see you naked" I blushed and opened my mouth so wide and raised my eyebrows and the photographer says, Tif, this is supposed to be a serious one, if only he knew, huh!!!!!

Reason #8

Because u come up to me' unexpected and ask " did u know how much I luv you, and then give me' a long smoochy kiss and my heart skips a beat and I fall even more in love with you!!!

Reason # 7

No matter how tough the situation, you believe that everything will work out and be okay!!!

Just what I needed to hear.......maybe this can help you too!!!

I found this on a friends twitter page and as I sit here at 4:30am not being able to sleep, this has brought new meaning as to how I want my day to go today!!! I love this man and hope that all those who read it will come away with the same sense of peacefulness that I did!!! I love you

Fasting......The right way

This morning when I awoke I Knew that this was the first Sunday of the month, for us LDS members that means that we fast for 2 meals, and start and end with a prayer of gratitude for what we are fast for or about!
Today as I knelt to open my fast my body was heavy with and overwhelming sense of Motherhood stresses! Why does this happen when you are trying to feel the spirit and keep it with you on the Sabbath Day, I try every day but mostly on Sundays! I had the kids fighting this morning about who got to be on the laptop the longest or who ate what cereal first and used it all, or the fact that the skirt they picked out (not me) was too itchy and they didn't want to wear it, when it wasn't even my idea in the first place but I'm the one getting yelled at for it! Really!! Then you get to church with a smile on your face and thinking the whole time, if these people really knew that I just threatened my children with a huge time out and early bed time if they misbehaved in church they'd be appalled but I think we are fooling everyone with our (my) happy smiling face as we walk into sacrament!!!
I can't tell you the flow of emotions that came pouring over me as I opened my fast today and just sat there for the longest time in silence, wondering how to fast for what I wanted so badly in my life at this time, Peace, calmness, happiness, endurance, calmness, to be more understanding as a mother and wife, calmness, the cloudiness to leave my head, the overwhelming feeling of defeat to disappear, calmness calmness calmness!!! As I asked for each of these I felt a rush of warmth come over me and the word calmness stayed with me, literally, I think I could have fallen asleep, I was so calm! Even though I could still hear the "murmuring" going on between "Lamen, Lemual " It didn't seem so big and defeating at that time, so it accrued to me that what I am going to have to do on a daily basis is go in my room, kneel on my knees and ask for that feeling of calmness to be with me, then sit there and just listen! It's the listening that makes all the difference in the world! It was amazing to me! I tell my kids everyday "your not listening to me" I think Heavenly Father is tapping at my soul and saying "Tifani, you are not listening to me" He's right! Turn off the T.V. and the music that is helping you clean the house to a steady beat and turn on a talk from a General authority or Sheri Dew or just inspirational music!!! or just sit in silence as you fold the clothes if the kids are asleep! Life is so fast paced and we need to have more "listening moments" Its amazing how I look at what I say to my kids and turn it around at myself, as if Heavenly Father were saying it to me!!!! Try it, sometimes it makes me laugh and other I cry and that feels good sometimes too!

Reason # 6

You hold the priesthood!

Create.....post 1

So Brenda over at Deck the Halls of Home with Joy had different ways to organize and "create" different craft rooms/office. I want this one and I really think this will work with the layout of my awkward office/craft room that looks like a bomb went off!!!

OKAY!!!! YUMMY

I found this recipe at a blog i follow called it's all in my head and this looks so yummy!!! might have to make these real soon!!!

Apple Dumplings

Apple Dumplings from ourbestbites

O.K. these are the most delicious Apple Dumplings.... Ever..Well these are the only ones I've ever had but they are Yummy!

2 medium Granny Smith apples
2 cans crescent rolls
2 sticks butter
1 1/2 c. sugar
1 tsp. vanilla
cinnamon (for sprinkling)
12 oz. (1 can) Mountain Dew or Sprite.

1-Preheat oven to 350. Spray a 9x13 pan with non-stick cooking spray. Peel apples and cut into 8ths.

2-Open a can of crescent roll dough and carefully separate the dough along the perforations. Place 1/8 of an apple on one segment of dough and then roll/wrap the apple in the dough. Place in the prepared pan and repeat with remaining apples and dough. Set aside

3-In a medium saucepan, melt butter and add sugar and vanilla. Stir to combine. Pour butter/sugar mixture over the apples, then pour the can of Mountain Dew (or Sprite, although I've never actually tried it), on top of everything. Sprinkle the pan with cinnamon and bake for 40 minutes.

4-When the dumplings are done, remove from oven and serve with a ladle-ful of sauce. plan on two dumplings per person, before they go back for seconds. And then breakfast. Then second breakfast. Then a little snack. For true transcendent awesomeness, serve with a scoop of vanilla ice cream

Reason # 5

Because I feel the most safe when I'm in your arms!!!

A little shout out to Vicky.....

The wood work that I have been putting with my posts these last few days are made by this fabulous lady!!! She is amazing!!! I love your creations Vicky!!!!

Reason # 4

You are the hardest worker I know, (sometimes you work to hard ;) and do whatever you can to make sure we are healthy and happy!!!!

Reason # 3

You always know how to make me smile when I'm stressed, (and your not the reason)

Reason #2.......

You sing to my when I'm in horrible pain or down with a pregnancy!!! "You are my inspiration, Tifani" (pillow talk with Doris Day)

28 reasons over 28 days.....why I love my Mr. B

Reason # 1

I love you so much, you've given me 4 beautiful children!

Happy "LOVE" month