I thought for sure that i was going to make this new year the best it could be. I mean really how hard is that. How hard is it to JUST be happy. I keep telling myself over and over, life is good... Kids are healthy, warm home to come home to, people to love and in return be loved!!
I am happy, I am healthy so what am I doing? Its not easy being positive all the time and trying to make everyone happy, including yourself. There are days I lay in bed in stead of doing my motherly duties and days I don't always answer the phone when it rings, some days those are hard things to do. Getting up and dressed is a task, am I not grateful for what i have, I AM!! It's just easier to let the kids fend for themselves for breakfast and throw my hair in a bun and NOT do the dishes, or care if the house is a mess. Depressed, maybe, but you know what....
It's life and
Its what I am doing
Brothers On Maps
6 days ago
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I know how you feel. Sometimes I just get in this funk and it is really hard to snap out of it. My new thing I'm trying (and haven't done the last couple days... oops!) Is to set my alarm at 6 and get up and have my morning prayer and exercise with quiet all to myself. Scott is already gone for work and the kids sleep until 7 or 7:30. I just have really struggled staying in pjs until like noon or so (like maybe all day :) ) when I eventually shower and Jackson is down for his nap. I've been really sore the last couple days so I haven't but I think its helping me go to bed earlier at night and getting my day going so I at least feel I'm not trying to cram that in later on. I do struggle a bit this time of year because up here we're stuck indoors a lot and because of dr bills we don't really have extra money to be going out and doing much. It's just really hard. But know you're not alone! And one thing that's really helped me is while I'm serving in YW, working on personal progress. I can't remember how old your kids are but if you have a daughter in YW you should totally do that with her! It gives me something positive to focus on each day as you set your goals plus you can earn a medallion for it with your daughter. Love how awesome that program is! I've had my Beehives making a goal to complete at least one experience a month and I've been encouraging the mom's to do it with them. It's really made me so much better than I used to be (guess there is a reason they call it personal progress!) and I feel like I'm in a much better place than I used to be because of it. As a leader I was having a hard time getting the girls to do it so after all the excuses I made up for myself I finally got down to business and I realized all the things I wanted to improve in my life I was able to with personal progress. Go figure! So anyway, now that I've gone on forever... keep your head up! You're awesome! :)
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