look what I'm making tomorrow........

If I can function that is!!! Having a searies of Steriod injections today in Tucson, Wish me luck and say some prayers!!! I'll need them
Luv ya much
Tif

This has got to be.......

The most inspiring week EVER!!! It's one of those weeks where the house stays a little bit more cluttered, laundry a little more piled up and dinner a little more on the " take out" side of things! AND It's ok! I've really been focusing on making my children feel more loved and far more appreciated! It's been my goal for this month, to step back and see the major potential my kids really have!! WOW IT'S BEEN AMAZING!! I have had to slow down a bit and not take soooo much for granted!!! I'm trying this in the husband category also!! This has been eye opening for me'!!! I have a new motto for motherhood and it's "example" and I'm trying really hard to stick by this! Treat my family how I'd like to b treated! Do unto them as i would want done unto me!!! My girls have been absolute rock stars since this last bout with my knee! And also my back!!! Yep 34 and already needing to be traded in for a newer model!! Haha
I don't think I was giving them enough credit where credit was due!! I feel like I'm kinda taking motherhood in strides, it's a wonderful feeling, but I also wish I had taken this on when I was a first time mom!!!
I'm now more grateful, sensitive, quiet, reassured, hopeful, thoughtful, and thankful! Even though there ate still days I'd like to scream into a pillow or run out my front door screaming for some help ( that's a funny mental picture right there) I for sure have my days, I'm seeing motherhood in a whole new light! And the future seem to be pretty bright!!!!

Can you wrap yourself around pain...Cambry did

Tonight is grateful sorrow in so many ways! Is there such a thing! I just dropped my 2nd oldest sweet girl off to my older sister in Globe!!! She is spending 4-5 days there! She loves it, the company, the chores, having Hebbie, Trevor, Cody and Wyatt all to herself! No sharing! I will miss her terribly! She asked right before we went our separate ways if she could call me' even at 1 am if she was scared! You bet I told her! She smiled, gave me' a hug and jumped happily in the truck!! Made my heart happy that she was so happy!!!

The pain in my back is excruciating! It's beyond one Valium, I'm one to one and a half and the knife driving pain is still biting to the bone! I still fill grateful for my trial, can I say that! I just did! I AM!!! my pain got my beautiful baby girl to her aunt Hebbie and uncle Trevor, who she loves!!! And that smile on her face as we said our goodbyes is worth all this pain, ten fold!!! I love you toad! Have a super fun week!!! Luv mom

It's monday

2 loads of laundry done
Protein drink consumed...yummy
best blessing ever from my sweet Honey
kids still in bed....it's 7 am
kitchen almost clean
painting getting started
making our "going to Washington chain" today
we leave in 19 days....so excited
taking the kids swimming...trying to wear these sweethearts out!!!!
already takin the painkiller.....geesh....but still smiling
Happy Monday

On the 7th day He rested

Doyle told me today he was sooooo bored! I told him that it was Sunday and it was a day of rest! "no it's not he argued, why can't I do something fun like swim at Mimi and Papa's house! I tried my best to get my six year old to understand why we don't do those activities on Sunday! He wasn't having it! So I finally told him, it took Heavenly Father six days to make the earth and he was so tired that he chose the 7 the 7th day to rest! I half expected him to back at me' with, well I didn't build and earth mom, but he just looked at me' with those big blue eyes and said "I have to sleep all day"

Here I go.....AGAIN

me modeling the bows Amanda and I made 2011


Why is it that just when you feel like life has thrown you that break......Bam!!!!It snaps again!! I had a great run of 4 months with my last set of back injections..Did I mention those hurt soooooo bad! 9months-2yrs is what I was told I should get out them for pain relief, welp 4 months later its valium and Tramadol to help my back not tighten up and go into massive spasm. I'd rather have childbirth,without an epidural, in the back of a cab in New York, whild being dragged down the road and hitting my head on the ground the whole time.....get the picture!
So it's back to Dr.Chase, a most remarkable man who knows just where to put those injections of steroids in my back so that by the next morning i am whistling while I work again. I really dont want to be in pain when we go visit Shawna and Ben and the kids in Washington next month. I want to enjoy myself, I miss them terribly!!!
Did I mention I miss them TERRIBLY!!!!!

Summertime

Wow...
Summertime is full of.....
sleeping in
early morning cartoons
swimming
the smell of sunscreen
and no where we HAVE
to be....I'm beginning to LOVE
SUMMERTIME!!!!